Looks like stormy weather ahead for today. High humidity and warm temps. are going to merge with a cold front coming through. It is a set up for the strong storms that are predicted. So nice to have our sturdy abode to be safe in.
Looks like stormy times ahead for me today too, with continued full doses of Flagyl. I must say I do not like the way it is playing with my brain. Joel keeps reminding me it is the meds and that I only have ___ number of days left. I refuse to say the number out loud. I want it over yesterday. Last night as I was laying on the sofa feeling toxic I said to Joel, "I thought doctors were supposed to "first do no harm"!!! When the h#*# did that change??!!" (excuse my tongue)Sigh.... Stormy days ahead....and I am very thankful for my wonderful sanctuary to be safe in.
I am not very happy with how much weight I have gained over the past 2 yrs. ~30lb.~ Yep. From all the food I need to eat with all the meds I need to take...to keep my stomach from cramping up....and the comfort food I indulge in to soothe my feelings. * I have not eaten sugar, most dairy, yeasts, gluten, chocolate, and other things for over 25 yrs. and I STAY heavy...what is up with that? Dr. V. says my adrenal glands are the problem. All I know is I feel very very plump...and not pleasantly so. And when I feel like this my self esteem takes a beating. My oldest son tells me not to worry about gaining weight right now, just focus on getting better. I have been very round for years, so it is not new, just not comfortable. I decided to no longer call myself fat, though, but "rubenesque" like all the uncovered voluptuous women the famous artist Ruben painted? Although, I definitely am not walking around uncovered. I need to maintain my dignity after all, and protect the innocent!
I have watched some of the TV coverage the past 2 days on the deaths of Ed McMahan, Farrah Fawcett, and Michael Jackson. It is well known among pastors and others, that deaths, like plane crashes, etc. usually come in sets of 3. Anyway, I am already sick of this continual bombardment of information on Jackson's life being replayed over and over again. Our news is so sensationalized and all about ratings. Sad...sad...sad....Speaking of sad, it is interesting to look at the 3 who died and how fame really altered their lives in a not so positive way. How many jokes have been told about Farrah and Michael? Ed had a huge...I mean over the top huge home that he lost to bankruptcy I believe....How could Michael Jackson think he needed 30 million a year to live on? What is wrong with these people? And are we any different or just living the same way on a smaller scale. All the "must haves" and "can't live withouts" we bring into our homes or garages and then cast off after the next "new" gadget comes our way. I have been as guilty as anyone else. Simplicity. There really is something to be said for the simple life and inner peace.
I have a confession to make. I do not shave my legs. Okay, I know this is too much information...giggle.....but I have a loose tongue today. I quit shaving over 2 yrs ago when the neuropathy was so bad that shaving sent me into high pain levels for days. It just was not worth it to bend to the whims of society dictating how I should look. I have always been a very hairy person, so this was a big deal at the time for me, but now I am 100% okay with it. I wear long dresses, pants, and skirts anyway. Speaking of long skirts, I wish it was the 60's again ...I LOVE the clothing from that time. Embroidered tunics, flowing skirts, etc. Come to think of it, alot of that is back right now isn't it.
I am reading a Sue Henry mystery. I like her fiction books on Alaska. I am also still reading "A Pace of Grace." This book is a treasure. I am trying to finish for the 3rd time Max Lucado's book, "It's Not About Me". I think I am a slow learner in this area of my life...Of course when you have brain fog, reading a book once only gives you half of the story! Reading it a second time is almost like reading it for the first time. Reading it a third time helps it really sink in! Ha!
Off to my sofa sanctuary. My hanging geranium is gracing me with an abundance of blossoms and I am enjoying the view.
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I hope you find my writings interesting and inspirational. They are often filled with emotion because I write without many filters, and they are interwoven with my faith because I know no other way to live. May you find tidbits of information, a dash of humor, and much encouragement here. May this place be a sanctuary for your soul.
I hope you find my writings interesting and inspirational. They are often filled with emotion because I write without many filters, and they are interwoven with my faith because I know no other way to live. May you find tidbits of information, a dash of humor, and much encouragement here. May this place be a sanctuary for your soul.
Having lived with chronic illnesses for many years, I have spent a great deal of time viewing the world from my living room window. Being homebound, I have created an important sanctuary for myself. On my sofa I have fluffy pillows and a warm wool comforter affectionately named, "Woolie" that keeps me warm in the fall and winter, or during Lyme and CFS crashes. In front of me is my coffee table that holds my writing materials, remotes, cordless phone, etc. There is a photo of our family, and a photo of our oldest son and his friends in their police uniforms, to remind me to pray for their safety. The lower shelf is overflowing with stacks of books, papers, my Bible, and articles I am reading at the moment. I have easy access to my TV, stereo, and cds, and I am only a short distance from the kitchen and bathroom. My recliner is close by with my laptop "Libby" right next to it. It is a good place to be.
There is a beautiful view into our backyard, where squirrels, rabbits, robins, cardinals, finches, morning doves, goldfinches, and sparrows gather. Quite often a deer or two will cut a path through our connecting yards for us to enjoy. Trees, flowers, and bushes brighten the landscape. I have watched this view change from season to season, and never tire of its beauty. Even though at times I get tired of living life mostly from my living room, how safe and cozy I feel in my sanctuary. I am blessed.
There is a beautiful view into our backyard, where squirrels, rabbits, robins, cardinals, finches, morning doves, goldfinches, and sparrows gather. Quite often a deer or two will cut a path through our connecting yards for us to enjoy. Trees, flowers, and bushes brighten the landscape. I have watched this view change from season to season, and never tire of its beauty. Even though at times I get tired of living life mostly from my living room, how safe and cozy I feel in my sanctuary. I am blessed.
Saturday, June 27, 2009
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Ha ha, I love Saturday Scribbles.
Weight is an issue with us isn't it? Any extra weight costs extra energy to move around. When feeling heavy I insist that I am addressed as Your Voluptuousness. Reminds me I'm not really fat, just gorgeous.
I haven't quite thrown away the razor yet but do wonder why I bother as I fall over in the shower for the umpteenth time time to reach my legs, which I can't see without my specs and I always miss a bit.
May your tongue be forever loose, it is highly entertaining.
Good morning Renee, as I was reading one of my random books that i pick up in the morning. This one was a "Women of Faith" book. On a page all by itself was this scripture. I felt led to share if with you, not sure why but here it is...Job 8:21. The sun is shinning here, what a way to start a Sunday morning. :)
So glad you find Saturday's Scribbles enjoyable and entertaining. I also gave up pantyhose at least 10 yrs ago. I decided a man must have invented them...they were never comfortable and made me feel like I was encased in plastic tubes.
I confess I am not sure i would have quit shaving if neuropathy did not force me to do so....but now, I don't even think of it.
Judy, I really love the verse you gave me in Job. Thank you so much. I look forward to laughing more ~ Joel and I do enjoy laughing together even in our current circumstances. Sometimes, though, the heaviness of what we are living, gets in the way.
Blessings!
Something else I recently read from "God Always Has a Plan B"...Laughter is a riotous vote of acceptance that God is the God-who-sees. Whatever it is probably won't go away, so we might as well live and laugh through it. When we double over laughing, we're bending so we won't break. If you think your particular troubles are too heavy and too traumatic to laugh about, remember that laughing is like changing a baby's diaper. It doesn't solve any problems permanently, but it makes things more acceptable for awhile...written by Barbara Johnson. It is a blessing that you and Joel can laugh together. I so admire the way you deal with your everyday circumstances. You give me inspiration to deal with whatever comes my way.
I love Barbara Johnson, Judy. She is an amazing woman...
I too enjoy Saturday Scribbles, Renee. You've made some excellent points about things....we too are getting tired with the constant bombardment about Michael Jackson (and the sure to come years of was it really accidental etc.)
I haven't been on line too much lately...we've been away. I have a lot to catch up on.:)
Glad you enjoy the posts on Sat. !
Hugs
Oh, I can relate to the weight gain. I've brought it up with my doc who says its due to toxins (the body makes more fat so it has a place to store toxins. I have a genotype that makes it difficult for my body to get rid of toxins).
I too have heard that things come in 3's. I've been watching the coverage and have been astonished that Michael Jackson's death has gotten so much coverage.
Did you see the Dateline episode of Farrah Fawcett? It's worth watching, very moving.
I hope the remaining days on Flagyl go by quickly.
Terri
Hi Terri
I had never heard that about toxins and storing them in fat. makes so much sense. My body does not eliminate the toxins well either so the doctor can't give me much of a dose of antibiotics compared to others.
I watched part of the documentary on Farrah Fawcett...it was terribly sad and really brave of her to do it.
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